Day 72 - Blue Spruce

Thought of the day: In a couple of hours, we're ringing in another new year.  This new year, just like every other new years in the past, still shrouded in its infancy as a landscape shrouded in a mist, offers hope and elicits excitement.  What is this new year going to bring?  Will I be able to bring about change?  The answer is probably no.  There are always reasons for things to be what they're.  No amount of resolution can bring about real changes unless you know what the reasons are and take steps to address them.  More often than not, the reasons are related to who you are.  So the real changes often have to come from within.  In a society overfilled with I-am-never-at-fault and can-do attitudes, it's so much easier to focus on addressing external issues and then lament about the lack of real, long lasting changes.  There will be a few issues I need to work on this year and, unfortunately, these are the same issues I have been working on in the past years and, most likely, in the future years as well!

Photo of the day:

Blue Spruce in the backyard through a misty window.

Week 8, 9, 10

OK, it has been a while, but it's the holiday season and I did make some donations in the past few weeks that would hopefully make meaningful differences in the lives of a few.

One charity that I'd like to mention is a very special charity I just discovered this year: Children of Vietnam.  COV provides care for the poor, sometimes poor and disabled, children of Vietnam.  I really like the approach they take to help these children.  Their field staff and volunteers evaluate the situation of individual families and create a care plan tailored for their specific needs.  The care plan is pretty comprehensive, covering everything from nutrition, medicare procedure, family housing, to access to micro-loans and education.  Their goal is to help these families get out of the cycle of poverty and provide a brighter future to these children.  Our donation to COV this year will help provide access to education for some of these kids.

Day 71 - Snowy Day

Thought of the day:  Finally we got some real snow.  Perfect day to snuggle up in front of a fireplace and watch a movie with the family - and that's exactly what we did.

Photo of the day:

Snowy day.

Day 70 - Lamp

Thought of the day:  Lila is starting preschool next week.  I am filled with uncertainty and sadness.  To me, she seems too little and too "clueless" for school, even for a preschool.  I have sent her to a drop-in daycare a couple of times in the past and had little problem with it, but this feels more permanent.  From this point on, I will be giving her up more and more to the outside world, where she rightfully belongs, but knowing that doesn't make the process any easier for me.  Of course, looking at the bright side, I will be getting more time back, which I really missed too.  In a way, this is like taking a journey from one place to another, the feeling of uncertainly and sadness on departure is mixed with anticipation and excitement of going someplace new.  There will be many journeys like this.  The key thing is to go with the flow and be happy anywhere I go.

Photo of the day:

Lamp, home and holiday lights.

 

Day 69 - Lila and Me

Thought of the day: We just finished watching The Pacific, a HBO miniseries based on the stories of three Americans fought in the pacific theater during World War II.  It's very intense.  One of the men, John Basilone, fought valiantly in the battle field until he was killed in Iwo Jima.  After the movie, we checked him out, fully expecting that the movie exaggerated in his unthinkable, heroic acts.  We were in for a surprise - this guy not only did all that, he did more.  We can't help but are in awe of his bravery and sacrifice.  People like him, tens of millions of them in the world, fought alongside in the war and made real sacrifices so now we can live in peace and prosperity.  There's nothing like watching, or reading, history to make one realize how much others had sacrificed for us, and how petty our daily worries really are.  The best way to pay our respect is to live our life with gratitude and openmindedness and live it to the fullest.

Photo of the day:

Lila getting on her K'Boom skis.  She has no fear!  (This is a Droid FxCamera photo.)

Day 68: Holiday Lights

Thought of the day:  Colorful lights are as indispensable to holiday festiveness as the holiday music.  And with LED lights, you can get festive without the guilt of using too much resources.  We have been putting up a lot of LED lights inside and out for a couple of years now.  It uses less than 100w altogether (remember those 100w incandescent light bulbs that we used to use?) and it lasts forever - we didn't have to replace a single strand so far despite the sometimes brutal Colorado winter weather.   In a long or even a near term, it's definitely more cost effective than incandescent holiday lights and it's just as pretty.

Photo of the day:

Holiday lights outside of our house.

Day 67: Railroad Museum

Thought of the day:  We spent a delightful afternoon in Golden's Colorado Railroad Museum today.  It's definitely one of the most photogenic places I have been to in Colorado.  There are dozens of locomotives on the outdoor display tracks.  A lot of railroad equipments are on display as well.  There were no running trains today but kids had fun going up and down the engines and carts.  I took lots of pictures: the unusual objects, late afternoon light and the historic Table Mountain in the background made interesting images.  And the museum served its purpose well - it made me really want to learn something about the railroad history in this country.  Unfortunately people don't travel by train much any more in the US, even though trains are still popular and practical in other parts of the world.  China depends on the railroads to move people around, especially around holidays.  In college, I used to ride a steam engine train to travel between Beijing and Fuzhou twice a year.  It took two days each way and it was a grueling journey sitting on a hard bench all the way.  Now you can do it in less than a day and probably much more comfortably too.  With China's heavy investments in High Speed Rail infrastructure, perhaps you can do it in only a couple of hours in the near future!  The Swiss use their trains a lot too.  Swiss trains are usually quiet, comfortable and equipped with large view windows.  No matter which part of the world you are in, part of the fun traveling by train should be the journey itself as you get to relax and enjoy the sights along the way.  I hope there will be a revival of rail travel in the US.  It will be good for us and good for the environment.

Photo of the day:

A steam locomotive in Colorado Railroad Museum.

Day 66: Panda's Gift

Thought of the day: Christmas is a good time to think about what makes one happy.  As I heard, one side effect of the recession was that it may have changed gift making in some subtle ways.  Instead of a lot of material gifts, people are giving more time to their family.  I think this will make people on both the giving and receiving ends happier.  My favorite gift this year was a story written by Jasmine for me.  It was inspired by a story called Quiltmaker's Gift that her teacher read in school.  Here is Jasmine's story: Panda's Gift.  True happiness comes from giving, from family intimacy and from within, and not from material wealth or the pursuing of it.

Photo of the day:

Jasmine's Christmas gift for me.

Day 65 - Piano Duet

Thought of the day: Merry Christmas!

Photo of the day:

Christmas piano duet...

Day 64 - Pizza Oven

Thought of the day:  There is something about the holidays.  Maybe it's the music, maybe it's the lights, maybe it's the food, but everything seems to be tinged with a certain joviality.  Even the most mundane tasks like cleaning the house or doing the laundry seems a little different.  And the kids, with little or nothing to worry about, are basking in pure joy.  Yes, every day should be a holiday.  I shall spend the remaining days of the year to figure out how.

Photo of the day:

Pizza oven at Laudisio Restaurant.

Day 63 - Skiing Snowman

Thought of the day: It was a perfect day to spend at Eldora, our local ski resort.  It was sunny, warm, and the snow was great.  Lila loved her k'boom strap on skis and learned to slide down a small slope on her own.  At the same time last year, we could make her stay on the skis for only a few minutes.  What a difference a year made!  Lila is fearless and eager to try out new things.  Her favorite sentence at this moment is "Let meeeee try!!!"  I like her spirit but it's a good thing that we didn't give in every time, otherwise she would probably have been in a lot more accidents than she has now.

Photo of the day:

Lila peeking into the kids's training area at Eldora - she is still too young to be admitted (cell phone photo).

Day 62 - Ice Rink

Thought of the day: We are having a stay-cation.  It's a good time of the year to do something local, like skating at One Boulder Plaza or skiing at Eldora.  It's a good time of the year to finish things up so that we can start the new year with a clean, or at least a cleaner, slate.  It's a good time of the year to take a break from work and travel.  It's a good time of the year for reflection and stay-cation.

Photo of the day:

Ice Rink at One Boulder Plaza in downtown.

Day 61 - Red

Thought of the day:  In the past years, we have, miraculously, managed to produce a lengthy letter at the end of every year.  It's a nice way to summarize and reflect upon the passing year.  As I worked towards the end of the letter, I was usually overwhelmed by a sense of gratitude - gratitude for the experiences we had, gratitude for the people who enriched our life, gratitude for all the precious moments that gave our life meaning.  Now it's time, or rather, past time, to make a letter for this year.  I know I will make one.  And I know it will be shorter, but not less meaningful.

Photo of the day:

Lila wearing a costume - with the lack of snow here, red is definitely the color of the season.

Day 60 - Crayons

Thought of the day: My mom got a little emotional when we left this morning.  It's always more difficult for those who are left behind - especially for the moms.  In high school, I took it hard whenever my brother had to return to college after a break.  I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it will be when my girls have to leave home someday.  Every day I get to spend with them is priceless as I know that they will eventually be on their own.

Photo of the day:

Crayons kept Lila busy, at least for a short time, during the flight home.

Day 59 - Dad

Thought of the day:  A week in the bay area flew by - we're leaving again tomorrow but it feels as if we just landed no more than a couple of hours ago.  My travel always seems to unfold like this: in the beginning, I am excited and in shock at how different everything is; and then at some point, it seems as if I had been there forever and that's how everything was supposed to be; and when it's about time to leave, all the previous emotions of excitement, shock, acceptance, and sometimes resignation are replaced by a singular emotion of longing to stay.  I am lucky to be able to travel and stay in different places, sometimes in different cultures, once in a while.  I feel like someone who lives on several threads of parallel lives and switches between them whenever opportunity arises.  It's challenging at times but mostly I enjoy it.

Photo of the day:

This is a chore-filled trip...here I'm shopping for a fireplace for my parents.

Day 58 - Lila and Grandma

Thought of the day: Listening to my mom playing piano today, I was struck by a sudden but not unfamiliar longing for my piano.  It has been a while since I last practiced.  As much as I love hanging around with Lila, I look forward to having some free time again when she starts preschool next year.

Photo of the day:

Lila and grandma.

Day 57 - Red Leaf

Thought of the day:  I wonder if the day time is especially short in California - it seems to be the case for me as I find it challenging to take good photos or record interesting thoughts whenever I am here.  Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's being with the parents, maybe it's the lack of a routine, I have a hard time to get a creative process going.  Come to think of it, I feel more comfortable in California but more alive in Colorado.  I think Colorado is good for me.

Photo of the day:

When we were walking in Terman Park this morning, we saw some fall colors. It was good to get out today and record the beautiful colors before they're gone.  Yes, Christmas is almost here and it's time for winter to come to the trees - at least  to some of them.

Day 56 - Chef Chu's

Thought of the day: We walked to Chef Chu's Restaurant in Los Altos for dinner tonight.  It was a gently moonlit evening, a perfect one to spend with the family.

Photo of the day:

Lila waiting with grandma in Chef Chu's for our table to be ready.

Day 55 - Leaf and Lamps

Thought of the day:  Today I saw some fall colors again - in California.  I also met a man in wheelchair who had lost his limbs to a disease.  He was upbeat and full of energy.  He wheels around the block and goes the gym every day.  He is definitely an inspiration for the neighborhood.

Photo of the day:

Two lamps and a ginkgo leaf in Palo Alto.

Day 54 - Bronze Statues

Thought of the day: I had brunch with a new friend today.  She was a photographer and used to work on media production and now her top priority is to raise her little boy.  It was interesting talking to her while Lila had fun playing with her boy.  It was good to "venture out" and meet some new people once in a while.

Photo of the day:

Two of the seven bronze statues in Boulder's Dushanbee Teahouse, where we had brunch this morning.

Day 53 - Cheerful Hat

Thought of the day: Lila was sick earlier this morning and recovered happily after a long nap.  Tonight it was Jasmine's turn to get sick with a bad headache.  I know she will be well again tomorrow, but how can a parent not have this heart in the throat, momentarily lost and very scared feeling when a child suddenly throws up or screams in pain, no matter how many times this may have happened before?  Yes, you know that your child will be OK, but deep in the heart the worst fear is always lurking.  We can be so easily carried away by fears that may sometimes be legitimate but are oftentimes irrational, fears that you don't want to face or admit but can never escape from.  Being human is like taking a ride on a roller coaster of emotions - a ride for the life time - and the more people you're deeply attached to, the more intense the ride is going to feel.  This is also a moment when I really sympathize with the single parents.  Being with a sick child alone must be very scary, bonding but very scary.  I hope they all have a support network which they can rely on and get reassurance from.

Photo of the day:

Jasmine loves her new, bright, cheerful knitted hat.  She asked me to take a picture of her with the hat this morning, when she was still as happy and bubbly as can be.

Day 52 - Game Time

Thought of the day:  Today we got our Christmas tree - healthy, locally grown, and pesticide-free.  In the past years, we just grabbed the best looking trees we happened upon, sometimes in a store, sometimes in a roadside tent.  We never thought about asking questions.  But of course this year is different.  A little bit of research showed me that most of the 25 million Christmas trees sold every year in this country were sprayed with pesticides at some point.  Some were even sprayed with colorants to look good.  Doesn't that dampen the holiday spirit a little to know that the centerpiece in your home may be loaded with chemicals, some of which may not even be approved for residential use, if the approval stamp means anything in the first place?  I called a few well known stores and found out that none of them carried untainted trees.  One of them was very proud to carry trees "trucked in from Washington and Oregon refrigerated".  Well, there goes the energy savings of all the LED lights.  Luckily, I called a local tree farm and finally found our Christmas tree - healthy, locally grown, and pesticide-free.

Photo of the day:

Game time, game time...  Will there be a game under the Christmas tree this time?  I wonder, i wonder...

Day 51 - Sunrise Reflection

Thought of the day: Today I was greeted by a magnificent sunrise in the Millennium Hotel.  Our room facing west on the 5th floor was perfect for watching the sunrise.  And then I spent a relaxed morning in Table Mesa area with dear friends.  In the evening we had a dinner party at the Med (Mediterranean Restaurant) - festive crowd, good food, good company.  All in all, another great day in heaven.  (This was written a day later.  I was actually planning to write something else but one extra day was enough to filter out all little things and leave me with what really mattered.)

Photo of the day:

Magnificent sunrise viewed from our room in Boulder's Millennium Hotel.

Week 7 - Beyond Pesticides

This week I decided to make donations to support Beyond Pesticides.  This is a not-for-profit working towards a world free of toxic chemicals.  They take a two-pronged approach to the pesticide problem by identifying the risks of conventional pest management practices and promoting non-chemical and least-hazardous alternatives.  They provide very useful information on their web site.  They responded quickly and helpfully to my urgent request for help after our pesticide exposure earlier this week.  We need more public awareness and policy changes that can be promoted by an organization like this.  I am so glad to be supporting them now instead of our former pest management company.

Day 50 - Knitted Bear

Thought of the day:  We became the environmental refugees from our home, at least for one night.  Our doctor confirmed that both girls showed signs of inflammations, probably due to the exposure to pesticides sprayed in our home two days ago.  I wish I took them to the doctor earlier, and stayed away from our home sooner.  But at this point I have stopped asking whys and what ifs.  I really want to focus on what is happening to us and what we can do.  What can we do so we can undo, as much as possible, what has been done to us? What can we do so we won't compromise our health further by future exposures? What can we do so this won't happen to others routinely, sometimes unknowingly?  It is challenging, however, when bad practices are already common practices.  You know it goes too far when a prominent local hotel offers "hypoallergenic" rooms that had just been sprayed with toxic chemicals.  I am not able to cheer people up with many positive thoughts today.  I will count on the happy bear to do the job for me.

Photo of the day:

I did run into some pretty generous people today.  This morning the guy at Brewing Market Coffee gave me a mug bearing their logo.  It's not a super fancy mug but I really appreciated the gesture.  And then the Children's Alley gave everybody a bag of hand knitted winter necessities - scarfs, mittens, hats, sweaters, and happy bears!  Apparently it was done by a group of community knitters for the children.  I feel like an imposter receiving such generous gifts when we already have everything we need.  I will give back to them somehow.  Between the guilt of receiving and the pleasure of giving, it's not hard to decide which one to choose!

Day 49 - Recycle

Thought of the day:  A friend of mine writes a journal for her little girl to read when she is old enough.  Recently she wrote: "If you ever feel like you don't have a purpose, please remember that it is not the great things we do in life that matter.  It is the small ways we affect the lives of the people we know, and the small ways that they affect ours.  That is why we all matter so very much."  It's very well said indeed.  Reading it made me really emotional today because of the context of the message.  I love you, my friend.  And you are making a difference, every day.


Photo of the day:

Recycle your coffee sleeve - a small thing that matters.

Day 48 - Red Note

Thought of the day:  It was indeed a sad day today.  I discovered that our pest control company, which we have been using for years, was spraying bad chemicals in the house.  We were not notified in advance, and the spray was totally unnecessary.  I fired them immediately, but how much damage has already been done?  We have two innocent, unsuspecting kids growing up in a house that had, most likely, been sprayed in the past.  I have betrayed their trust and have put their health in danger and that makes me overwhelmingly, unspeakably sad.  Companies, in spite of their efforts in building a trustworthy image, can not be trusted to watch out for your benefit.  Not at all. No matter how many years they have been there.  No matter how many households they serve.  No matter what they claim.  Your health, and your kids' health, are solely on your own hands.  I have learned this in a hard way.  And I hope I will never forget this again.

Photo of the day:

In the studio of Jasmine's piano teacher, a note and a handsome boot hung on the door to collect EFAA donations in lieu of gifts for the teacher.  This demonstration of generosity and holiday spirit definitely brightened up my day more than anything else.

Day 47 - Portrait

Thought of the day:  I had many happy surprises today.  On the way out this morning, I was greeted by the view of a very unusual, painting-like cloud floating high above Broadway.  Surely it's not just a random formation of water droplets or ice crystals as they say, someone must have just painted that on the blue sky with bold brush strokes.  Later in the morning, I had the pleasure of photographing some sweet little kids. And then, unexpectedly,  I received a can of nice tea from a friend and a book with beautiful rhymes from another.  As if that was not enough, I got another surprise in the afternoon.  Jasmine's piano teacher asked her students, if they wish, to give a donation to EFAA in lieu of a holiday gift for her.  And she will match the donation 100%.  What a thoughtful and noble thing for her to do! EFAA has seen its caseload skyrocketing this year and it doesn't have enough to meet all the needs in the community.  Her gift will, for sure, make a difference in someone else's holiday.  All these happy surprises put me on a pretty good mood for the rest of the day, which should not come as a surprise at all.

Photo of the day:

Portrait of a little girl.

Day 46 - Holiday Tea

Thought of the day:  This morning I read a touching story about a couple displaced by the Fourmile Canyon Fire donating Christmas gifts to three needy boys.  When people are in need themselves, they tend to be more acutely aware of the real sufferings of others.  Their own difficult situations make them more aware and compassionate and thus kindle their generous giving spirit which, I believe, lies in the heart of every human being.  On the other side, when you are rich and live comfortably for too long, you may loose touch with reality and the real people.  Your fire of generosity may become dormant.  I wonder if that explains why, statistically speaking, the poorer you are, the more generous you tend to be.  Coloradans earn more than national average, but they give less;  Boulderites earn even more than state average, but they give even less.  I wonder what it will take for the spirit of generosity to be rekindled in people.  Maybe the Fourmile Fire was one such extraordinary event and the statistics for 2010 will be different from the past?  Maybe more people will realize that giving is not only a blessing for those who receive, it's even a greater blessing for those who give, as it can open up your mind and heart, put your own life into perspective, and give you real peace and happiness.

Photo of the day:

Hotel Boulderado's Storytime Tea, a benefit for the Parenting Place.  'Tis the season...a season of sweets, a season of celebration and a season of giving.

Day 45 - Bird of Prey

Thought of the day:  This morning we watched a falcon working on its prey in the backyard of Trident Cafe.  It was a pretty unusual scene in a city and you could tell that from the attention it commanded from the patrons of the cafe.  Could it be a Peregrine Falcon?  It used to be an endangered species due to the use of pesticides including DDT.  As Peregrine Falcon sits high up on the food chain, it got accumulated, large doses of pesticide exposures which affected its reproduction.  Luckily, its population recovered after the worldwide ban of DDT.  It took a Silence Spring and the ensuing environmental movement for that to happen.  That makes me wonder, what will it take for us to realize that we're becoming an endangered species ourselves, by what we are doing to ourselves and to the environment?  That also gives me hope: if we can be motivated enough to save a bird and actually pull it off, perhaps we can be motivated enough to save ourselves and pull it off, too.  Only the future will tell.

Photo of the day:

A falcon working on its prey in the backyard of Trident Cafe.

Day 44 - Wild Hair

Thought of the day: Today was a perfect winter day to take a stroll with a friend on the 29th Street Mall.  Albeit a little windy, it was perfectly sunny and warm.  The colorful holiday decorations and the Christmas tree outside of Macy's added a festive air to the open air mall.  Shopping didn't even cross our minds.  There's nothing like watching your kids running around wild and happy to make you forget about all your worries, todo lists and, if you try hard enough, your lack of sleep.

Photo of the day:

Izzy's hair ran wild in the wind.

Week 6 - Community Cycles

Community Cycles is a local not-for-profit that promotes cycling as a sustainable means of transportation and recreation.  One thing they do is to give out refurbished bikes to low income families every December.  It's definitely a good cause to support.  This week I made a donation to help a couple of kids get their bikes.  It makes me happy just to imagine the excitement of these kids getting on their bikes this month, possibly the very first ones they can call their own.

Day 43 - Reading Books

Thought of the day:  The rewards of parenthood often show up when you're not expecting them.  When I was showing and singing to Lila some songs in a lullaby book, she suddenly decided to sing along with me.  We have "read" the book many times before in that manner but usually she would just sit and listen quietly.  Tonight I discovered that she could sing most of the songs in tune.  What a surprise!  That reminded me of Jasmine when she was a toddler: one day when I was reading One More Bunny to her for the sextillionth time, she decided to break her silence and finish every sentence in the book for me.  These are the moments when you realize that your kids take everything in like a sponge, no matter they're showing it or not, and whatever you do for them have a meaning.  These are the emotional moments that all parents live for.

Photo of the day:

Lila flipping through a book.

Day 42 - Church Reflection

Thought of the day:  Today I was photographing buildings and patterns in Boulder downtown.  I found that the most interesting buildings to photograph were almost all church buildings.  I haven't noticed this before but it's hardly surprising: churches are built to be awe inspiring and they often have distinctive roof lines and intricate window designs which make them really interesting to photograph, especially on a clear and sun filled day like today.

Photo of the day:

Reflection of another church on a church window in Boulder Downtown.

Day 41 - Warm Light

Thought of the day:  Recently some of our friends are getting separated or divorced.  I can not even begin to imagine the immense sadness of it, or the years of frustrations and unhappiness that must have preceded the separations.  And their kids...  The world they were born into and grew up in is gone.  How brave will they need to be to get through this at their tender ages?  What impact will it have on them in the long term?  This is so sad.  Wrapped in the warm lights of so many homes, many stories unfold but unfortunately not all of them have happy endings.

Photo of the day:

Window deco and warm light.

Day 40 - Lila and Drill

Thought of the day:  I got quite a few inquiries lately from people interested in finding a Mandarin speaking babysitter or tutor for their kids.  Some of these families don't have any connection to Asia.  With China being the world's second largest economy already and with its double digit annual growth of GDP, it's well positioned to overtake the US and become the largest economy in the future, provided that it can find enough resource to sustain the growth.  So it's hardly surprising that there's a surging demand in the US for learning Mandarin.  However, Mandarin is certainly not an easy language to learn and I am impressed by how far parents are willing to go to give their kids a possible edge in the future.  Some economists predict that China will overtake US in 10-20 years.  If that happens, these kids will graduate from college when Mandarin is in hot demand and at that point, they may appreciate what their parents did for them when they were just a wee little baby!

Photo of the day:

Lila with a toy drill in Boulder Parenting Place.

Day 39 - Nutcracker

Thought of the day:  December is almost here!  Today we hung up the holiday lights and watched Nutcracker at Macky Auditorium.  The show is festive and delightful and gets many a family, including ours, into the holiday mood every year.  It's also a great way to support Boulder Ballet and Philharmonic Orchestra.  We have been to the show with Jasmine every winter since we moved to Boulder. Lila was not happy to be left out today.  Luckily she will be old enough to join us next year and I can't wait to introduce her to this holiday tradition.

Photo of the day:

Nutcracker show.

Day 38 - Windup Toy

Thought of the day:  Today I went shopping with Lila at Playfair Toys.  The store is unpretentious and has plenty of space for Lila to move about and explore.  Her favorite activity was riding a Rody Horse - we may get one for her for Christmas (shhhh...)  We like to shop in local and independent stores and we are lucky that there are a few local toy shops in town.

Photo of the day:

Lila playing with a windup toy at Playfair Toys.

Day 37 - Flying Home

Thought of the day:  There's nothing like a week long stay in a leaky 60 year old house to make you appreciate the importance of insulation again.  Poor insulation is an open invitation for winter to enter your house any time, all the time.  We returned home to Boulder today and it felt so much more comfortable inside the house even though it's much colder outside.  I am so glad that we properly insulated this house - the energy savings and additional comfort is definitely worth every penny spent.

Photo of the day:

Flying home.

Week 5 - Parents' Home

We spent the entire week in Palo Alto helping my parents set up their new home.  I know one is supposed to help their family but this is the only thing I did this week so it will have to count.

Day 36 - Fireplace

Thought of the day:  We don't always eat a turkey on Thanksgiving day. We eat what we happen to have and feel like eating at the moment. For instance, we had some delicious roasted chickens tonight. On this day it's more important who are at the table than what are on the table. Tonight we got to spend some time with family members who we didn't get to see often and that was good.

Photo of the day:

Old fireplace.

Day 35 - Red Lantern

Thought of the day:  I was biking in Palo Alto late this afternoon when it was getting dark and things were looking a little blurry but I was feeling very at home. Perhaps it was the moisture in the air, perhaps it was the quiet streets, or perhaps it was the thought of the home where my family, including my parents, were waiting for me, I never felt more at home in the bay area than at this moment.

Photo of the day:

Red Lantern.

Day 34 - Happy Girl

Thought of the day:  There are days when I let an entire day slip by without taking a single picture or writing down a single thought.  When it's getting dark, I am surprised that another day is slipping by and saddened that with a million sparks of light dancing around me all day, somehow I did not manage to capture a single one of them.  This is just like life, a million happenings and a million possibilities are around us but they can easily slip by without registering in our eyes or minds.  Taking pictures is my way of paying attention and becoming aware.  It takes effort as it's often easier to just do nothing.  I am happy to have this blog keep me going.

Photo of the day:

Mischievous little Lila trying to mess with daddy's keyboard.  A happy moment in the house.

Day 33 - Writing Chinese

Thought of the day:  My dad loves gardening for as long as I can remember.  To me, what makes my dad special is not that he is a great teacher or a great father - and he is both - but that he can turn a space into a green oasis no matter how small it is or what circumstances he is in.  Now that he is retired, this hobby comes handy.  I don't think he has ever had a bored moment as he is spending all waking hours outdoors - whenever he can - doing what he loves the most - gardening.  I always admire people who do things with love and dedication and my dad is definitely one of them.

Photo of the day:

Jasmine was writing Chinese under the guidance of her grandma.  It takes a lot of practice to write them properly.

Day 32 - Exercise Bike

Thought of the day:  Our childhood memories are alive and well deep inside us.  I have fond memories of playing and running in the courtyard of our family home when I was growing up.  Watching my girls playing and running in our courtyard in Palo Alto brings back warm memories and it makes me smile.

Photo of the day:

Lila was holding onto her big sister on the exercise bike in the backyard to get a free ride.

Day 31 - Green

Thought of the day:  Whenever I visit the bay area, I am impressed by how green it is.  I think I will continue to be impressed for a while as it has not stopped raining since we landed.

Photo of the day:

Wet leaves in the courtyard.

Day 30 - Mustache Day

Thought of the day:  We are at DIA (Denver International Airport) waiting for our flight to the bay area.  We are going to spend a week in my parents' new home in Palo Alto.  I am full of anticipations and anxieties at the same time.  It's a new adventure for my parents so I'm excited for them.  In the meantime, there's still much to be done for the house and that makes me anxious.

Photo of the day:

Mustache Day at Mesa.  Jasmine did some face painting this morning.  That's something new and she was very excited to wear a Mustache to school.

Day 29 - Sticky Note

Thought of the day:  This morning I had coffee and conversation with a very dear friend of mine.  A morning flew by so fast and it felt so good.  We do not live far from each other, but we have our own routines and somehow just had not been able to meet and talk for a while.  Sometimes we can be so preoccupied with life that we forget what life is really about. 

Photo of the day:

Jasmine was writing the sticky notes that were attached to the bags we handed out to the homeless people today.  Jasmine said it felt good for her to give out the bag.  It gives life meaning to be able to help.

Week 4 - Boulder Homeless

We often see homeless people on the streets of Boulder.   When we drove past a scruffy looking person holding a cardboard asking for help, I always had a hard time explaining to Jasmine why we should not just stop and give him money.  No matter how logical these explanations seemed on the surface, we were saying "no" to somebody who might legitimately need help.  Jasmine has genuine compassion for these people and I certainly do not want to discourage it.

This week we finally got to do something about this situation.  Jasmine and I went to Costco to buy some warm blankets, socks and chocolates for homeless people and divided the goodies into 10 bags.  I asked Jasmine if she wanted to attach a note and she thought about it and wrote: "I hope this will make you feel better."  We attached a note to each bag, drove around town and gave a few bags away to the homeless people we found on the street.  We gave the rest to the Boulder Shelter for the Homeless.

Day 28 - Louisville Bus

Thought of the day:  I am missing my very good looking and super slim Apple laptop.  I had it for only two weeks and already had to send it in for repair this morning.  Apple laptop is overpriced, the hardware is crappy, and I can't do without one.  This definitely fits the definition of addiction.  And I am not only addicted to Apple laptops, I'm also addicted to Lightroom.  Comparing with other assortment of addictions, these may not be the worst ones, but they're addictions nonetheless.

Photo of the day:

RTD bus on Via Appia Way, Louisville.  I was watching them go by as the girls played at the Cottonwood Park.  This photo has been processed with Lightroom.

Day 27 - Path Lights

Thought of the day:  Today it's my turn to write in the Family Message Journal that Jasmine brought home from school.  Every week, she writes a letter to us in the journal and we take turns responding to her in the journal.  We are definitely taking this as serious as she does.  It's very helpful to share our thoughts this way and say things that we would normally not say to each other face to face.  This made me miss the old days when we would actually sit down to read, and write, handwritten letters.  Comparing to typing emails with blinding speed, we definitely write with more deliberation and compassion and that makes all the difference.

Photo of the day:

Our path lights.  I drew these lines with the camera.

Day 26 - Pink Bike

Thought of the day:  Every day there will be little things that frustrate you and little things that make you smile.  That's pretty much inevitable.  We can, however, choose what to take to heart and what to let go.  In a way, we are affected less by what is happening to us than how we react to it.  And sometimes, just by looking at things from a different angle, we can even turn frustrating things into pleasant surprises.  For example, as we live in west Boulder, in winter time the sun can go down at as early as 3:30. When the rest of Boulder is still basking in the daylight, we're already in the dark.  That is, literally, the dark side of living close to the mountains.  However, when I was outside on the deck after the sunset this afternoon, I had the pleasure of watching the line that sharply divided day and night slowly moving east until it faded away into the horizon.  That was amazing to watch.  What's a better place to watch the light than in the darkness?

Photo of the day:

Light and a pink bike in the playground of Boulder Parenting Place.

Day 25 - Jasmine and Blankets

Thought of the day:  Since I started this blog, I have been hearing from old friends who I haven't heard from in quite a while.  We may have been close at a different time in a different place, but as time moved on, we went on our separate paths.  With this blog I am able to share part of my life with them again.  This is an unexpected reward for doing this blog and it makes me happy.

Photo of the day:

Jasmine was resting on some blankets we bought today for the homeless people.  It's hard to believe that many of my old friends haven't even met her.

Day 24 - Boulder Theatre

Thought of the day:  Watching Warren Miller's Wintervention definitely got me into the mood for skiing tonight.  I don't know if it's the movie or the theatre-ful of frenetic powder-craving people.  Probably both.  I also can't help noticing that this crowd is a little different from the crowd in a typical Takacs concert.  The intersection must be minimal.  This is what makes it so interesting to live here.  We get a broad spectrum of people for a population of merely 120,000 - that includes the university students, of course, without them the city will not be nearly as colorful.

Photo of the day:

During the intermission, I saw this reflection of Boulder Theatre on a car window.

Day 23 - Friends

Thought of the day:  A friend of mine is trying hard to make all the right decisions for her new house - flooring, cabinet, etc.  There are tons and tons of decisions to be made in the building process and it can be overwhelming.  And on top of that, she needs to work with contractors with their own ways of doing things that do not necessarily agree with hers.  We went through a major remodeling a couple of years ago and we can sympathize with what she is going through right now.  Building a house is like going through a lengthy pregnancy.  At the end, all the effort you put in will be made worthwhile when a place you can call "home" is born.

Photo of the day:

Hiking with our friends Jill and Izzy at Chautauqua today.  The Flatirons in the background was lightly coated with snow.